I said..

I cry, you cry, we cry, together..

Its been such a long time..

There's good news and bad news.

The good news is.....I really want to blog. To update, release thoughts, and see if what I think I think now, is really what I mean a week later.

The bad news is....I'm so tired/hungry/dying of thirst that I don't think I have the proper energy to dedicate to a blog to bring it up to speed at this very moment.

I probably wouldn't even be on here if it wasn't for the SO(stolen acronym from another site means Significant Other there may be more). We were texting and somehow ended up on my blog. He didn't ask much, just if I was blogging at the time..no..and what I blogged about. I told him people, life,school but not sex. He said I hope not and I responded.."well it was before I was having sex". Basically before he and I were anything special. Anyway because of his curiousity I got to thinking that maybe I should dust off the keyboard and get back to it. In the past yr or so I've gone through a lot and it probably would've helped if I had somewhere to spill everything..(granted there are best friends but doesn't one even keep things from them for fear of embarrassment or rejection?)..Anyway since I am currently jobless I and have all the time in the world I will make an effort to breathe life into this old dog.

Love, Life, And New Beginnings..

****Ok I just realized that my last entry was posted nearly a yr ago today(off by about a month) and has the same sign off..wow, I must be really bad at this new beginnings thing. later much**********

My Life's To-Do List

My To-Do list

I'm hoping to have these things begun by 2009. This isn't a new year's resolution because those don't really work or last. This is my list of things that I want to have in working order by or within' the first few months of 2009. Most of them are simple things and seem stupid but I need to get them done to get my life in order and feel better about me and mines. A few things on here have already been started but aren't complete. A few things have been postponed and are being restarted and a few will be listed just to keep my eye on the prize. I haven't completely decided on whether this will be a to-do list for the next year/ a 5 year plan or if I should seperate the two. Either or these are the things I need to work on or create.

-Create a strong (natural) hair regimen and stick with it.

-Grow my hair another 8-10 inches by Dec. 31 2009 11:59 pm

-Find a way to work out and stick with a 2-3 week work out plan

-Declare officially a double major in English/Communication with minor in African Amer. Studies

-Create a strong daily schedule. Not a strict one but one that is flexible and incl. the things I MUST do everyday.

-Reconnect my previous relationship with God.

-Find a second job

-Decide on the next step in Tim and I's relationship.

-Be more open with myself, friends, and strangers.

Ok I MUST get ready for work now but when I get back I will (hopefully) be up to finishing this or atleast adding more.

Later Much!

Peace, Love, and New Beginnings

WTF?! Danger this blog has no topic! (But do they ever?)

     I hate when people ask me stupid questions and then get upset when I give them a stupid answer. I mean you get what you ask for right? lol Sorry I'm just annoyed with my boyfriend right now; he's such a blowhole sometimes. lol Maybe I'm just in an annoyed state of self right now...No it's definitely a little bit of both and mostly him. lol

So the other day I decided I'm becoming lonely. Well I won't say lonely but I feel like I'm becoming very isolated from everyone. I know I've said I would like to be by myself but it's easier to be alone when there aren't people around that you're used to hangin' around. (repetition "no-no" for all you english majors out there!)

I hate listening to my boyfriend fall alseep on the phone. I dunno why. I used to be fine with it. I think it's withdrawal from the BC. It's taking over my life without even being here!

Ok so still kind of on the lonely but not lonely thing, I think the isolation thing is even more presence because its starting to set in that I won't see the boy for a great while. Like until after Valentines Day and maybe even later than that. Blugh...long distances suck major.

I think (and you CAN quote me on that one) my next blog might be about long distance relationships. Of course I'll have to put my little twist on it because there are a million and one blogs about long distance relationships. I even saw a video on youtube on how to make them work. lol  =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_i1tt26n3A

If only it were that easy...

Later Days.

Sooo typical of her!

Ok so I've come to the conclusion that I'm just like most females in a relationship. I truly and genuinely wish I wasn't but I am. I don't know how it came to be this way but its too late to go back now. I don't mean like just like most females in the sense of them being crazy (lol I mean that in the nicest way) BUUUTTTT when it comes to the jealousy disease most women are afflicted with I am right up there with the best of them. I don't want anyone to take this as me admitting to crazy jealous girlfriend syndrome but I do have a few of the symptoms.

Whoa I just remembered I have to work tomorrow from 11-8 ( you do the math) so I'll finish this tomorrow if I don't fall alseep in my way home and crash into a ditch by the side of the road. (God forbid)

Later much!